‘I Still Have Dreams Of Being A Mother’

‘I
don’t
think
it’s
too
late.’

Samantha
plays
little
Kashvi
Majmundar’s
mother
so
naturally
in
Raj-DK’s

Citadel:
Honey
Bunny
that
one
wonders
if
she
wanted
to
be
a
mother
in
real
life
too.

“I
don’t
think
it’s
too
late,”
Samantha
tells

Subhash
K
Jha.

“I
still
have
dreams
of
being
a
mother
and
yeah
of
course,
I
would
love
to
be
a
mother.
I
actually
treated
Kashvi
like
an
adult,
like
an
equal.
We
didn’t
do
any
child
talk;
she’s
a
very
smart
girl.

“I
haven’t
seen
such
kind
of
talent
that
she
displayed,
like
crying
on
cue.
She
had
unbelievable
empathy.
She
was
able
to
understand
what
we
were
telling
her,
she
was
so
quick.
I
think
she’s
the
best
part
of
the
series.”

Have
the
blows
of
life
made
Samantha
stronger?

“People
say
that
when
you
go
through
hardships,
you
become
bitter
and
cynical.
But
honestly,
the
opposite
is
true
for
me.
Sometimes
you
can
evolve
through
life’s
blows
and
you
can
evolve
quicker
than
you
would
ever
have
with
only
successes
and
an
easy
life.
I
am
calmer
now,
sorted
and
don’t
easily
stress
anymore.
I
never
thought
that
this
day
would
come.

“Even
before
release,
I
was
actually
pretty
calm
and
that’s
not
my
personality,”
she
adds.

“I
freak
out
about
every
single
thing
and
then
about
the
response
and
go
looking
for
the
negativity.
But
this
time,
I
sense
a
lot
of
calm
and
a
lot
of
change
in
me.
I
am
quite
surprised
by
myself.

“It
has
to
do
with
growing
up,
maturing
and
understanding
that
everything
is
not
in
your
control.
You
have
to
do
your
best
with
what
life
throws
at
you.
I’m
surrounded
by
wonderful
people,
who
inspire
me
every
day.
I’m
happy
to
be
on
set
with
such
talented
film-makers
and
co-stars,
so
I’m
in
a
very
good
phase
in
life.
I’m
genuinely
happy
and
feel
blessed
to
have
the
opportunity
to
live
every
day
to
the
fullest.”

Samantha
has
been
getting
a


lot
of
praise
for
her
work
in

Citadel,
but
she’s
cautious
about
the
success.

“I
don’t
want
to
get
lazy
and
relaxed
in
that
feeling
of
success.
I’d
rather
move
on
to
the
next
challenge.
I’m
taking
my
time
to
soak
it
in,”
she
says.

“The
fact
that
I
was
able
to
finish

Citadel
was
a
success
for
me.
Today,
to
get
this
kind
of
appreciation,
where
no
one
is
really
pointing
out
that
she
wasn’t
convincing
and
which
I
was
really
scared
of…
I
learnt
all
my
action
on
set.
I
didn’t
have
time
to
prep
for
this
role,
so
I
was
scared
that
I
wouldn’t
do
justice
to
it.
But
I
think
90
percent
of
the
comments
have
been
positive,
so
this
means
a
lot.”

Samantha’s


medical
condition
has
improved.

“I
haven’t
gone
into
remission,
but
the
episodes
don’t
happen
too
often,”
she
says.

“Before
it
was
a
lot
more
to
deal
with,
but
now,
it
is
easier.
I
know
when
it’s
coming,
so
I’m
better
prepared.
But
I’m
a
lot
better.

“I
thought
about
this
when
I
was
sick
and
would
ask
myself,
why
me.
But
now,
I
wouldn’t
have
it
any
other
way
because
I’m
proud
of
my
resilience.
I’ve
never
said
I’m
proud
of
myself;
I
have
always
been
uncomfortable
with
compliments.
I
used
to
be
filled
with
self-doubt
and
insecurities.

“For
me
to
be
able
to
stand
here
today
and
tell
you
that
I
am
proud
of
myself
has
taken
a
lot.
I
don’t
think
I
would
have
been
able
to
get
here
without
everything
that
life
threw
at
me.”