‘After The Traitors, I Felt Suicidal’

‘I
felt
very
worthless.’
‘I
am
an
actor
who
has
never
had
a
hit.’

OTT
actor

Sahil
Salathia
seems
really
upset
about
his
stint
on
the
Amazon
Prime
Video
reality
show,

The
Traitors.

He
feel
especially
bad
because
he
was
‘betrayed’
by
his
best
friend
of
eight
years:
Elnaaz
Norouzi,
who
is
among
the
three
‘Traitors’,
including
Raj
Kundra
and
Purav
Jha.

Sahil
was
the
first
to
be
evicted
from
the
show,
and
he
tells


Rediff‘s

Shristi
Sahoo,
“I
was
humiliated
by
my
best
friend
of
eight
years.
I
was
thrown
out
by
somebody
who
literally
was
my
family
in
Bombay
and
did
not
even
apologise
to
me.”

How
was
your
experience
on

The
Traitors?

I
was
there
very
briefly
because
I
was
killed
very,
very
soon.

After
the
show,
I
felt
suicidal.

I
was
humiliated
by
my
best
friend
of
eight
years.

I
was
thrown
out
by
somebody
who
literally
was
my
family
in
Bombay
and
did
not
even
apologise
to
me.

I
felt
very
worthless.

I
am
an
actor
from
Jammu,
who
studied
at
a
Hindi
medium
school,
and
have
never
had
a
hit.

I
did
Ashutosh
Gowariker’s

Panipat,
which
tanked.

Everest
didn’t
really
take
off.

P.O.W
with
Nikkhil
Advani
wasn’t
appreciated.

Adhura
on
Amazon
Prime
Video
wasn’t
really
about
me;
I
was
in
the
ensemble
of
five
people.

When
Raj
(Kundra)
told
me
that
Elnaaz
was
the
traitor,
I
felt
someone
pulled
the
rug
from
under
me.

This
show
left
such
a
huge
impact
on
me
that
I
have
decided
not
to
be
on
a
reality
show
which
has
men
in
it.

Girls
understand
me
better.
Men
hate
me.

I
don’t
know
if
Raj
and
Purav
had
a
reason
to
kill
me
(being
the
‘Traitors’
on
the
show).

There
must
be
a
reason,
but
it
made
me
feel
suicidal.

I
don’t
have
close
friends
whom
I
call
family
anymore.

I
don’t
go
for
birthdays
at
midnight
with
a
cake.

I
live
alone
in
Mumbai.

Who
do
you
think
is
the
underdog
in
this
game?
Who
is
the
smartest
player?

I
had
said
in
the
Prime
Video
diary
that
I
think
Elnaaz
is
the
Traitor.

I
literally
go
to
her
house
six
times
a
week,
she
is
that
close!

I
had
felt
that
Elnaaz
was
the
traitor
as
she
was
always
very
irritated.

When
I
got
to
know
that
she
killed
me,
I
couldn’t
believe
it.
I
went
into
a
depression
which
cannot
be
described.
It’s
stupid
because
life
is
bigger
than
a
reality
show.

But
life
is
not
bigger
than
a
reality
show
for
someone
like
Elnaaz.

So
she
is
the
strongest
player
because
if
you’ve
lost
at
relationships,
then
you
are
ethically
the
weakest.

You
killed
your
best
friend
in
the
show
because
Raj
Kundra
told
you
to.

How
would
you
play
the
game
differently
if
you
were
given
a
second
chance?

I
would
not
play
it
because
there
are
men
on
the
show.

What
was
your
reason
to
join
the
show?

I
wanted
to
be
seen
as
the
real
Sahil.

I
think
there
is
some
confusion
about
my
Hindi
or
they
think
I
am
a
stupid
actor.

See,
this
profession
is
based
on
the
luck
factor.

I
wanted
to
be
seen
by
more
people.

If
you
see
the
content
I
put
out
on
Instagram,
it
promotes
a
certain
kind
of
fashion.

I
keep
international
aesthetics
in
mind.

So
I
wanted
to
be
seen
by
more
people
who
would
probably
be
a
part
of
my
tribe
and
be
like,
‘Yeah,
man,
you
are
cool!’

How
do
you
feel

The
Traitors
is
different
from
other
reality
shows
in
India?

All
the
20
contestants
were
very
interesting.

Nineteen
out
of
20
were
dignified,
and
achievers
in
their
own
fields.

Like,
Lakshmi
(Manchu)
is
a
big
deal
in
the
South.

Raj
(Kundra)
is
a
cool
entrepreneur.

The
other
reality
shows
who
come
to
me,
the
people
that
they
get
aren’t
of
much
‘value’.
Not
in
terms
of
money
but
in
terms
of
what
they
stand
for.

Do
you
think
being
a
traitor
is
necessary
in
today’s
times?
Have
you
ever
been
in
that
situation
where
you
had
to
deceive
someone?

People
see
through
you.

Good
actors
may
look
innocent
(because
they
use)
fillers,
Botox,
lips,
nose,
whatever….

But
your
soul
needs
to
be
clean.

You
cannot
be
a
negative
ball
of
energy
and
then
expect
to
do
varied
roles.

So
you
don’t
have
to
be
a
traitor
in
real
life.

For
me,
I
don’t
have
to
kill
my
best
friend
(on
a
reality
show)
and
not
even
apologise.